I am mostly bored now-a-days.
Which is odd, because I am never lacking for something to do. Most of my waking moments are spent working, but in-between I still watch an occasional television show or catch up with the internet or view a video or read a book or something. How can I be this bored if my days are so packed? What else am I looking for?
I honestly don't know.
But it explains why I am constantly taking on new projects even though I don't have time for them. It's why I got RW to join me in creating Thrice Fiction. It's why I went ghost-hunting in Kentucky. It's why I do volunteer work that sends me to Hawaii. It's why I fly around the world visiting Hard Rock Cafes.
It's why I blog.
But despite all my efforts, it never seems like enough. Now even the crap that used to excite me is starting to become boring, which sucks. Maybe I need to start skydiving again or something?
Only time will tell.
If I don't end up bored to death, that is.
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Want me to send over a DutchBitch shower to keep you busy?
Well, the weather HAS been mighty warm lately…
hearing u2 singing “i still haven’t found what i’m looking for” now. i’m incredibly curious how long it will take you to figure out what it is that you were seeking the entire time. and what that something is!
It’s probably chocolate pudding, and what I was looking for was in front of me all along!
You and I need to go scuba diving. That’s all there is to it.
But it needs to be some crazy-ass scuba diving. Like watching lava move off the coast of Hawai’i. Or diving in the Antarctic (cold as fuck, but beautiful). Or great white shark cage diving off the coast of South Africa. Or maybe diving off Catalina Island during seal mating season. I think you could get a lot of action.
LET’S BOOK IT!!!!!
I would love to start diving again. But I really do need to get certified all over again. Hmmm… that might be something I should look into on my Winter vacation!
You want I should send you a bunch of stupid email forward things? No? Oh, okay. 🙂
Seriously. You do so much! Don’t know how you’re bored, but I get it!
Come party with me this weekend! Gilda is at grandma’s.
If only. That would be awesome X 50! Alas, by the time I drove to your place the party would be over. 🙁
Yeah, um. I don’t want to seem out of order here but maybe, perhaps you are lacking fulfillment because you are working so much. Filling your time with things, places, projects, travel etc.
This is a full life, a rich life. But you are mostly alone as far as I can tell.
All I can say, is that for me, no matter what job I have, no matter what adventure I persue, no of it really matters.
What matters most, what give me the most fulfillment is being a wife and a mom. I love and am loved. I am wanted and needed and need and want in return. This means everything.
so, maybe this is why you are bored. ?
I don’t blog about my family, offline friends, or relationships… all of which I do have, and which make me feel much beloved. 🙂 And while I understand that there are people out there who would be unfulfilled if they didn’t have kids, that is absolutely not me at all. In the end, I really am just bored… not lonely.
I know how you feel to an extent. Clearly I am not as busy as you are but I am starting to be bored by the things that I used to really enjoy. It’s part of the reason I blog so rarely anymore.
I’m constantly looking for new things to do so I won’t feel so bored.
Oddly enough, blogging is one of the few things that still doesn’t bore me… if anything, it helps take the boring edge off at the end of my day! 🙂
I dunno, but I share your affliction of constantly taking on new things.
Maybe you need to write a novel!
Ha! That sounds like more work! 😀
Isn’t boredom just a part of the modern human condition? Ugh…I got bored just typing that.
I dunno. Bad Robert seems to think that my life is so full-throttle with all the crazy stuff I do that the downtime just seems boring by comparison and, in fact, I’m not really bored at all. I guess it seems as plausible as anything. And now, after reading your comment, I have to wonder if perhaps it IS part of our human condition… and it’s our entertainment industry that’s pushing us there. I want to live on Pandora!
I thought about this post a lot. I think the bored thing comes with aging (if you are at all perceptive, and many people aren’t, so they don’t have this fucking problem) – at least for me – I get bored with the way my own brain works. By now, I have fallen into patterns of how I think and react that are so predictable even when confronted with novel situations and experiences that I just get plain sick of myself.
Maybe this is why people drink and take drugs – to get out of their own brains. But again, I am old enough to know “Oh, this is Sue’s brain on alcohol” which is annoying and not at all fun. I’m not the kind of person who can get drunk enough to forget how I am (I go from mildly buzzed straight to “Gonna throw up” without any intervening period of drunkish fun nirvana that others seem to achieve).
So I don’t just want to scuba dive – I want to be someone else scuba diving. Does that make sense?
The blessed relief that comes from this aware-of-my-own-Sueness plague is when I am doing something that occupies me completely, which is rare. Sometimes writing or solving a hard problem or dancing take me out of my own brain for a while. But my own brain always comes back.
I guess I should learn to embrace my me-ness, but I resist. I yam what I yam, and I do find it wearying.
Well, that was fucking cheerful. Sorry.
Actually… I totally get that. Because what’s the one thing that’s the exact same every time you do something… no matter how exciting or different?
You’re the same.
So yeah, being able to be somebody else would be the ultimate boredom cure!
Unfortunately, the movie Total Recall is still just fiction. :-/
From what I can tell from casually reading your blog for years now… You are some kind of spy ninja graphic designer. And if spy ninja graphic designers grow bored- what hope do we regular folk have? 🙂
I highly recommending knocking on neighbors’ doors and then running behind a bush to hide and watch from afar. This always does the trick for me.
With several projects I’m working on, I never seem to get bored. Distracted a lot, yes… but hardly ever bored.
Absolutely! Spot on. I get it, believe me. xoxoxoxo