It was a strange day.
It started with me being backed into a corner with few options. Eventually I had to choose my way out. And though I'm still not sure I made the right choice, I'm so relieved to have escaped the situation that I really don't care. Because when you've had a weight pressing down on you long enough, getting rid of the constant pressure is worth just about any price. I guess I'll celebrate now and worry about the consequences later...
Except...
Now I have the pressure of wondering if I made the correct decision hanging over me.
Crap.
If it's not one thing it's another.
FOREVER!
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You’re like me…Even if I tink long and hard about sumfing and make a wise decision, I still second guess the hell outta my choice. Then I turn into an anxious, quivering puddle of worry and cry a lot.
Sometimes I get obsessed with making the right choice. I’m in Al-Anon and there’s a slogan that says, Make a choice and make it work. In other words, just decide that it’s the right one. There’s no actual right/wrong choices (or very few.) It helps me.
I hope your situation turns out well 🙂
Lately I’ve just decided to do the best I can at making the really tough choices. As long as I know I did *that much* then later on when I have to make another tough choice because of my original choice? I don’t beat myself up over it. Mostly. 🙂
I think deciding to have the sex change will be a positive direction for you.
Ah life. It’s one great big choose your own adventure. As long as you didn’t make your decision and turn to a page that said “THE END” (which typically involved walking into a cave and getting your head smashed in by a Yeti, Bigfoot or crazed monkey) then you should be good – at least until the next decision which could end with that exact consequence.
I have complete confidence that you’ll MAKE that decision the right choice – regardless. 🙂
Any relief of weight and pressure is worth any future consequences, unless those are more weight and pressure.
Will it matter to you ten years from now? 😉
VETERNS DAY, 11-11-2009. On this day, paying tribute to *ALL* veterns, and having an added bonus of a grandfather, age 89 . To: GRANDFATHER in San Carlos, CA, I would like to pay tribute to and thank you so very much for your fight to keep all our freedoms alive.
Is this, like, real life and stuff, or some role-playing video game?