I tossed and turned all night, which I assumed was anxiety from the massive pile of work that awaited me this morning. This was a bit confusing, because every morning begins with a massive pile of work. There was no reason for today to be any different from other days.
And yet it was.
I was busy with a project when the email notification came. Not wanting to be disturbed while I was in the middle of things, I ignored it. Twenty minutes later, the world came crashing down as I finally read the email from a friend who was sharing some terrible news. This seems to be happening far too frequently now-a-days, so you'd think I'd be accustomed to it. People losing their jobs. People losing their homes. People losing their health. People losing their lives.
But of course you can never get used to these kinds of things. Not really. And this time it was particularly sad.
I think I must be at the point where I hurt for friends, family, and loved-ones more than I can hurt for myself. This is both terrifying and liberating to discover, though I don't know what to do with it.
Except more tossing and turning, I'm sure.
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I clicked over from Bloglines to suggest you add a like button to your post for those of us who are so Facebookicized that we like to read and not take the time to write, but also let the writer know we’ve read and liked, because i enjoyed your Creativity post from a couple of days ago, which I am just reading now via Bloglines, which is like my DVR, but for blogs, and I wanted that like button. So yeah, the point is, I got here and there was this post, which hadn’t made it’s way to Bloglines yet, because it is always delayed or something, and so what do you say? A like button is so unfitting. And a dislike button is too callous.
So, I’ll say this…life. It is what it is. Like it or dislike it, the days keeps coming until they don’t anymore. Right? And we don’t get used to it, because that is what makes us human. And I like that.
May you sleep better tonight. And have candy for breakfast.
Sorry Dave. If you want some good news, I haven’t lost anything in the last week except my virginity!
I’m sorry to hear that something awful happened to your friend. And I’m sorry that affected you so deeply.
I think I more upset for other people than for myself. Probably a good thing.
So sorry to hear it. 🙁
Things better get better soon or sleep is going to be in my past.
I am so sorry, dear heart.
Sorry that you got bad news mate. That always sucks. I also had a kind of tossy-turny night and feel like a walking zombie today.
You’re letting us comment here. Maybe.
Ok.
So, as I said, humans are *extreme-ly resilient.
And you might possibly maybe want to consider not letting yourself wallow quite so hard in OPP. (The last P for problems.) You’ll drive yourself insane if you permit yourself to become very emotionally invested in their life travails.
I’m not saying be a cold-hearted bitch, though. Cuz, jeez.
🙁
I too had trubz sleeping Sunday night because of the Mt. Everest of work that was waiting for me @ the office on Lunes.
And I think so much about stuff that doesn’t directly effect me that I don’t even think I am having panic attax any mo’. I think it’s just Josherz being Josherz.
Keep on trucking…you gotz all our support.
I’m just catching up and wanted to leave a quick note on this one. The day before you posted this, I actually got some pretty grim news. (Worse than “bad day” type of stuff.) I cried a little when I read your post because it is happening too often and it does feel like the world is crashing down. I don’t know what else to do besides just keep on pushing through, but it’s tough, and I appreciated knowing I’m not alone. However twisted that is.
I hope things improve for your friends. And all around.